posted by Cheryl on empowerment and discovery, family life

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Today I had the experience of discovering my own personal power.

Hubby and I have been working on our “pretirement” vision of our life. What would that look like? Family time, travel, community contribution, outdoor time, friends, entertaining, and fun.

We had been toying with the idea of going to Alberta to visit family for Thanksgiving for awhile now. The opportunity came up to go with my in-laws, but there were obstacles… First, we had to have the money to go. Then, they didn’t have the money unless we were able to contribute more. Through it all, we persevered, kept our intention to go, and so – we’re leaving Saturday morning.

Considering this will be our first trip anywhere since July 2008, that is a pretty big change for us. And we just created it – set our intention, things fell into place, obstacles came up and were overcome, and now we’re going. Simple as that.

I’m almost done my work for the day, restoring integrity with my client work. I’m almost done the things I have been procrastinating on for weeks! It’s an awesome feeling. I still have a few hours to go, but it will be done before I turn in.

Again today, I didn’t create a financial miracle. I was in a disempowering place all day. I have a goal of restoring integrity with all of our financial obligations – getting our bills up to date. It is bringing up a lot of issues for me. I feel like I am a “bad person” for letting things get this out of hand, for compromising our financial situation this badly.

Right now, all told, I am probably $30,000 out of it – between old debt and currently behind bills. It is huge for me to even admit that publicly. No one really knows how far gone my personal financial situation really is.

And I will restore integrity there. I am powerful enough to create that.

Tomorrow is the day I create a financial miracle for our family. I will manifest $1,000 to pay an upcoming bill and cover some more expenses for our trip. That might even allow us to *gasp* *shock* go out for an adult meal with my brother in-law, leaving lil’ girl and my nephew, or go to a show, or do the tourist thing and visit some attractions. Maybe even take the kids out!

I know this is going to happen, and the neat thing is – I have no resistance to it. I say “I will manifest $1000 tomorrow” and my mind doesn’t tell me no, or that it is impossible, or that it is a huge number. There is complete silence in my mind. Which tells me that something is right about what I’m doing.

That is all for now… Back to work for me! Getting all of this work done tonight will really free up my mind to enjoy my first real vacation in 3 years. That is a long time to go without any R&R!

To the possibility of… possibility.

 - C